Sunday, September 30, 2007

Just a little tired right now...

So today was a pretty amazing day, actually. I went to our local church in the morning, in the early morning...I volunteered for the Nursery a couple weeks back. Those toddlers are just so amazing! They really do seem to have unconditional love, a certain acceptance and joy that is rare to find these days (especially at foru.ms it seems). There were to girls and two boys there today, one of the boys dad was a volunteer too so he was with daddy. The other 3 were more quiet than usual, it seemed like the whole church was just dead-gone tired today, but they were energetic nevertheless! Our first stop: The Slide. The Slide is a wonderful thing; it let's us climb up and down the slanted slope, the walls, the doors, the platforms. There's even a basement of sorts! Then there's The Ball(s); these are the round little things, they can be big and blue, or just small and yellow; they even make noise! And The House, who can forget The House?! From climbing out the windows and doing flips, to playing pick-a-boo and hide-and-seek. It's the most natural thing in the world. There are even Babies to accompany us for the 10 minutes we're interested in them! Snack Time is the most favorite time of the day, besides Story Time and the pictures that naturally come along with it.
Honestly, sometimes I think that toddlers see the world as one big playground. From the nametag/lanyard hanging around my neck, to the graham crackers that are at snack time. Even the people who just finished their youth group lessons! The world has a lot to learn from these little people. They love everyone, everything, and naturally cling to their mommy and daddy.
Mommy and Daddy....Mommy and Daddy....I wonder if we can use that analogy for the Trinity? With the Holy Spirit being Mommy, the Father being Daddy, and Jesus being the Son. But I'm getting sidetracked.
After the Nursery I was off to church for yet another sermon by the pastor, but this one was different. Actually, I forgot what the sermon was about, but I do know that it was related to last weeks. And last weeks was profound. It was about kindness, about our roles as Christians. He started by saying that there are churches where we feel that we aren't welcome. He heard of people telling him how that other church is fine and has great music, but that church is not really "kind". And then he pulled a shocker. He heard the same thing about our church. Our church! That just shocked me. Well, no it didn't. I was more like "so I'm not the only one!". But it was still a little shocking nevertheless, imagine your pastor saying that your church was talked about in a negative way. But I experienced that too. In youth group the teens were welcoming, but that was it. Once they found out my introvertedness, there weren't many interests, except for a couple...which then I messed up. But they don't understand! They don't understand what I'm feeling inside, how I'm feeling it, and what I do to keep it inside. They don't understand...ya'll prolly don't understand...
After the sermon my brother had a group practice with his band (it was pretty good in my opinion, except their drummer spot had to be filled in by the pianoist. So no keyboard or piano today, which was a bummer) and I went to kinda just drive around for 30 minutes. Found another shortcut to my uni from my church, and even a little park on the way back. Then when I arrived again at our church to wait about an hour till my brother was done, I got to read some bulletins and announcements at the front desk. They were nothing unusual, just the usual announcements from the groups. And then I found a book, a book about evidence for Christianity. I think this was the only book that I read so far that had to be the most comprehensible and the most matter-of-factual. Christianity: the faith that makes sense by Dennis McCallum. Yes, I took a picture of the cover with my cell phone to remember the title for later. I only read the last part, about basically the problem of evil. What was most striking to me was the fact that the author actually went through Christianity's past atrocities and...said that that was evil. I never heard anyone, author wise, do that! There were always some excuse to make sure that the Crusades were still righteous, or just quickly dismiss them with a "they weren't true Christians". But this guy, he went ahead and went through the facts. How the Christian church didn't bother teaching the laymen to read for a reason. How the Protestant Reformation was not all holy, how they continued the persecution that the Catholic church started. I recommend it.
After that little part of the day we went home, at home-made pizza and blueberry muffins, and then went to do our homework. For me, doing Chemistry homework was a big relief...there were 20 or so waiting homeworks online just for Chemistry, all due today, and getting them done was a huge burden taken off my shoulder.
Of course, now I have to go and finish The Groundwork to Metaphysics by Immanuel Kant...so I better go now, and I apologize for the rushed and childish sounding of the post. It will probably be like this for a while yet, until I sort the confusion out inside my head. I will keep on writing though. Writing for G-d.

G-d bless you all,
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